Me, Myself, and I…
2008 August 21
One of the most fascinating things about my life, in my opinion, is the number of contradictions I live on a daily basis.
- I am one of the laziest people I know… but I’m always so busy, that I never really have time to be lazy. Ironic, no?
- I constantly whine about all the things I have to do in a day, but I’m constantly searching for new things to add to my routine… for instance, this fall I’m taking classes to get my teaching degree… one more thing to add to my already full schedule…
- I’m always talking about men and relationships, but when I really think seriously about it, it scares the hell out of me and I do everything in my power to avoid it…
- I’m afraid to lose control of my life, but all I really want is someone to lean on…
But if my life is a series of contradictions, how will I ever actually know who I really am?
I relate to all of these. You and I are very simillar… I’m sure I’ve said it before.
You’ll know. It will come.
The important thing is to keep searching for yourself.
I keep waiting for someone to tell me who I am, too. And every time I think I’m close to figuring it out, everything changes. Sigh.
Shit – you are all those things. A study in contrasts doesn’t necessarily equal contradictions.
With Bob’s help I think I have finally logged in to be able to comment. Keep writing, I like reading what’s on your mind.
I consider myself to be one of the laziest people I know as well. But then when it comes down to it, I can get things done and do them well. That’s what matters.
And I’m taking a nearly full load of classes (two credits shy fo full-time status) while working full-time as well. I should have checked the box marked “full-time” on my FAFSA, maybe they would have given me more $$ so I could have dropped some hours at work.
(Who am I kidding? I would never give up my full-time status at the hospital as long as I can help it. My job is too hard to come by in this state where unemplyment is like, over 7%. I gotta pay rent, eat, and have insurance while I’m in school!)